Message from the universe...

Had an incident at work the other day and did a little therapeutic writing about it. I looked up a good graphic to go with it, but the darn thing wouldn't post. Received an error message, more than once. Ended up trying another post but the same error message. At which point I said okay I don't wanna post it anyway--just a tad snarky.  Now however, with the advantage of time and space I can see how I was being helped into not posting a mini rant that I'd never want to read again anyway.

Gotta love happy accidents

Gratitude

So, I've had some clear messages recently and thought to take a moment to express my gratitude. I'm a quest kind of person... okay, it's late and I'm not sure that's exactly the right word... seeker is maybe more accurate. I'm a seeker. I love learning new things, trying new things, etc.  Also, I crave meaning.  So, I usually have a lot of questions swirling around. That's just normal for me.

Sometimes I get too caught up in a question and it's too consuming and not all that productive. Sometimes a question will be overwhelming or scary and I'll put it in a 'box' and ignore the heck out of it - not all that productive. Most of the time though, I let those questions just whirr (how do you spell that word?) in the background and eventually they are resolved.

Lately, I've been trying not to put things on boxes. As Brene Brown says, I'm trying to lean into the discomfort, lean into vulnerability. So, in wrestling with a question that makes me sweaty and nervous, when I really just want to run, I've been leaning in and trying to find resolution. And by golly, it's arrived. And it really wasn't as scary as it was at first glance. Ha!

Generally, I hate it when people write cryptic crap and then don't explain it. But, some things are just personal. Period. But I also fully understand the power of the written word.  I feel so strongly about this moment that I'm putting gratitude above whatever else is going on.  It's okay. It really is.

Thank you loving universe. Thank you. Thank you for the sweet and loving people who show up at just the right moment to teach me or show me or model something that I really need. Life is a magical and wondrous happening. 

Off topic but not totally... I'd also just like to express my extreme gratitude for being the age I am. I love my 50's.

How are all of you?

Well hello world!

It has been since November that I posted here.  That seems unbelievable to me on one level, yet I

♥ Maya

know it's true.

Lots has changed, and lots has stayed the same.  There really isn't any way to document everything, so I'm just going to act like we're good friends and can pick up anywhere without a lot of explanation. Sound good?

My new job is A-OK! I love it.  I've learned so much, yet have more to learn and am really excited about that.  It was my first tax season as an accountant and ohmygoodness!  I had no idea.  We were working 60 hour weeks and there were days when I would come home and just go straight to bed. Not only were the hours more intense, there was so much to learn that my brain was exhausted.  But even as I'm writing this, I'm smiling.  It was challenging and exhausting, but it was awesome!

I've let my side business slide while adjusting to my new career.  I finally think I've sort of caught up from all that I missed January through May. Sort of being the operative phrase.

Let me ask you this...  If you miss someone's birthday, and you want to send a belated card/gift - how late is too late?

Of course I'm asking because I missed some birthdays in the beginning of the year. Really, birthdays are not my strong suit. I don't know why, and I know I need to change the way I'm telling my story, And the whole story is that my husband isn't helpful in this arena, at all. Which wouldn't bother me except I feel inadequate here and would dearly love him to step up so I'm not going it alone.

We are about to become semi-empty nesters.  Our youngest is in college and will be returning to campus very soon.  Our next to youngest is moving to his own digs even as we speak. So, we're about to be on our own.  Which is both exciting and bittersweet.  I actually really like my husband.  Yes, he drives me batty, on a fairly regular basis, but I'm crazy about him and I enjoy spending time with him. It's the easiest and best relationship I have. On the other hand, dang I love those kids and miss them like mad when they're away.

Okay, that's all for today.  It's good to be back writing.  I like writing and I've missed this little not often seen blog.

Happy Thursday World!  Watch this Mike Rowe video for a little peak into his philosophy and take on life that has had me going hmmm for days.